Please, anyone.

Who are you? I do not know you. Is there anything between us? If there is, what is it? Please tell me, because I need to know. Without knowing I cannot live. Why is there always something missing? Can you tell me what is it; because I don't know and I have a feeling I will never know. We meet each other everyday, almost everyday, but I still don't know. I'm so confused because the two of you are worlds apart, so much so, I cannot tell what I may and possibly be doing wrong. If there is a possibility, will one of you tell me? Tell me, what I did that could be so possibly wrong that I don't know what is going on. Please, I beg of one of you, anyone of you - What did I do that could have been so possibly wrong?

Touching My Heart

Marie Digby - Feel



Feels like I spent all this time talking to walls
Feels like I gotta let go of the way it was before
Are your really there? Are you made of stone?
Am I talking to someone or am I here all alone

[Chorus]
Are you alive, don't you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive, show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Seems like you're stuck in a daze, slipping away, away
I'm sick of trying to reach you, can't you say what's on your mind
Baby we're losing the race too far behind, behind
Tell me that I'm not the only one who can try, who can fight the wall

[Chorus]
Are you alive, don't you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't you feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive, show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Sometimes the words they don't get through
What really speaks is what you do
Open up, let me inside, just wanna find you

[Chorus]
Are you alive, are you, are you?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive, show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Whoa, wake up, are you dead?


Thanks for introducing it to me.

Long Overdue Updates

An entry is long overdue. I haven't been able to find the time or the capacity to blog, things have just been so hectic ever since I made plans to come to James Cook University. Firstly, I think some explanations are required, especially to my friends from SIM.

James Cook University is an Australian-based university. They have 3 universities scattered over Australia. The Psychology program offered is basically the best in Singapore currently. It's an accelerated course of a 2 year degree program. The third year is for honours and if the criteria is fulfilled in the honours year, you can skip the masters and go straight to a doctorate. Obviously, the grading criteria is insane. You basically need to obtain a distinction or high distinction in all the modules you undertake, especially for me as I have 8 exemptions. My degree course is shortened to 1 year for 4 months. However, I am going to take an extra semester because I want to space out my modules so I don't have so much to cope with. I figure, after all I'm paying for the modules not the semesters so it doesn't really matter how long I take, still the same price.

Basically, these 4 weeks have been insane. The amount of work and classes has been quite overwhelming and demanding, especially for the fact that I've decided to take higher level modules, which is obviously not recommended in the first semester. In any case, that's all I've got to say on my current situation.

I definitely made a few good friends in SIM and I really really miss them. Especially, Van, Skye, Tinny and Ann. You guys are my lovable Green Tea Clubbers. I definitely miss the classes where we doodle away on paper and play hangman in class. LOL. I miss Terry and his insatiable desire of snapping rabbit's necks off and Steve and Lydz and their horniness. MAN, good times! Oh well, I guess all I can do is look forward. When I left MGS, I kept missing the days there and kept wanting to go back just for one normal day of 7.30am - 2.15pm school. When I left SFMS, I wanted just one more day too and now that I've left SIM, I want one more day too, but that never happens. I shall not be emo. I forgot to mention how much I miss chattering away with Sandra during lessons about our boys or before they became our boys. Heh.

In any case, a basic update on what I do these days is mahjong, usually on Friday and Saturday nights, going out with mel, doing this mystery shopper job which means travelling to all the Esso stations around Singapore, asking questions and handing out money for questions correctly answered, my weekends from last week, this week and the next week will be at my cousin's car company, we're having a car boot sale, selling anything but cars (me selling plushies), my classes and night classes, meeting old friends, playing dota. I don't have to to sleep. Meh ): Oh wells, I'm enjoying life, a busy life has its quirks. When I was in SIM, it was so slack that everyday I just dove more and more into the art of doing nothing. At least now, I feel alive. Somewhat. I just wish I could have more time for sex. (Sandra just wondering when sex was going to pop up :D)

To sum up my rojak entry, if you're interested in visiting the car boot sale, it's just beside the old queensway movie theater, it's this weekend, 25th and 26th July, and next weekend, 1st and 2nd Aug, you can call me at 81118288 for more details. It's like a mini pasam malam where all our items for sale are placed in the car boots. I'm selling my plushies, some clothes and books, archie comics too, and other vendors are selling things like laptop covers, bags, clothes, handmade accessories, purses, DVDS, food and beverages. There are also games and prizes to be won! There's also a Wii machine which you can play for free, so do come support and enjoy yourselves. Drop me a line if you're interested, thanks! :D

Cheers!

Signing off,
Charrrr

Anime Frenzy

The past few days have been filled with nothing but Anime. It seems like the past 2 years without my Anime have created an insatiable void in me that's craving to be filled. I just can't stop watching them. It started last week when my brother told me that Full-Metal Alchemist (FMA) has a new season out. FMA, being my favourite Anime of all time, I wasted no time procrastinating or hesitating. I just clicked on his link and streamed it. Well, it was just the first episode so there really isn't much to judge or comment yet. Still, after such an awesome first season, I can't see how bad it can be. I need to find that season though, my memory is pretty hazy because I watched them at least 4 years ago. If you're interested to watch it, go to http://animeblogz.com.


After watching that episode of FMA, I decided to try other Animes and chanced upon "Claymore". OMG. It is beyond fantastic I'm telling you. It's definitely a must-watch Anime for all Anime lovers. Also, if you're a fan of gore and fighting, that's a great one for you too. Trust me, it's worth watching this one:D.

The main character of Claymore is a girl named Clare. She belongs to an organisation specialised in hunting Yoma (Demons). The organisation is labeled "Claymore" by regular people. They are a group of females that have special powers to fight demons. They are often feared by the regular people and can be recognised by their silver eyes. Claymores are not regular human beings. They are made up of half-human and half-yoma parts. The creation of a Claymore is made via a human female ingesting demon parts. During the course of the Anime, we are shown what makes Clare the way she is and what makes her special and also what makes her more human and compassionate than any of the other Claymores. Not to mention, the fight scenes are awesome. (Lots of heads and arms getting chopped off =/.)

Rating: 10/10 (I'm just waiting for Season 2, but it doesn't seem to be happening )=.)

Here's another one. This is what I'm watching at the moment. This is the third episode because I feel that the first 2 episodes are pretty boring. The fun seems to be starting here. I've read comments of other Anime lovers that it only starts to get fantastic Episode 30 and up but I haven't got that far so I'll just leave Episode 3 here for your viewing.

Watch D. Gray Man Episode 3 in English Subtitles

Basically D. Gray Man is similar to Claymore in the sense that it is about a fight between Good and Evil, just in a different style and form. The main character is a young boy who is an exorcist. His name is Allen Walker.

Well, I'm really bad at sypnosis because I'm often too lazy to formulate them so I'll just post videos. Heh. In any case, here are some Anime recommendations of my own.

Fruits Basket
Full-Metal Alchemist
Full-Metal Panic
Bleach
Claymore
D. Gray Man
Ouram-High School Club
Chobits
Nana

Enjoy them! (:

This is a good streaming site, hardly any MegaVideo streams.
http://www.anilinkz.com/

These 2 are pretty good, hardly any MegaVideo streams.

Warning: Westmall's Arcade

Just last Saturday, Melvyn and I had the misfortune of vising Westmall's arcade. I'm extremely disgusted by their horrible service attitude, and that's saying something. I am very hard to displease. I suppose, due to the huge amount of electricity consumption by their newly added toy-catching machines, a power trip occurred. The entire area of toy-catching machines, as well as, Sweet Land, simply went dark.


The most ironic thing of the encounter was this:


Oh yes, the hook stuck in the middle of nowhere, the piglet I was attempting to capture, and judging from positioning I would have caught it. Which brings me to the part where they failed to get the power back on. There we stood, foolishly in front of the aforementioned piglet machine for at least half an hour, waiting for the horribly disorganized staff to fix the power failure. Failing to diagnose the problem and bring the power back up, the staff did not so much as attempt to address the people foolishly waiting for their money and chances stuck inside the machines, until we, the foolish people confronted them.


There's Melvyn in the white shirt, amidst the group of dissatisfied customers, waiting for the staff to render us with a suitable solution. Well then, as I mentioned earlier, I'm an extremely dissatisfied customer, horribly disgusted by their lack of service. The only solution they gave us was to record our game cards in the system and lock it down so they can return us our credit to the specific machine when we return to the arcade at a later date. As staff of a game arcade, their lack of understanding of their own services simply disappoint me.

Toy-catching is based on chance and position. It takes much more than 1 credit to get your prize positioned to the exact position for catching. Once you miss that chance, you are going to spend much more than that 1 credit you use on a capture attempt to get the toy in a suitable position once again. Not to mention, the fact that our cards are locked down, unable us to use that particular card in other arcades.

I feel more strongly towards those playing Sweet Land at the moment. Let me explain. Sweet Land's main objective is not to catch sweets, but to hit the jackpot. There are 3 stages in the road to the jackpot. The stages are labeled A, B, and C. It takes approximately 5 bubbles to reach each stage. C is the last stage. After C, it takes 5 more bubbles to hit the jackpot. At the jackpot, you get a stuffed toy. When you scoop up the sweets onto the platform, the sweets at the front line usually fall off the platform into the "hole". Only when a sweet falls at the specific tiny tab right in the middle of the platform, you then get a bubble up. There is a spinner, like the Wheel of Fortune that sees how many bubbles up you will get, ranging from 1 to 3. The machines are usually rigged and it always ends at 1. So imagine, you need at least 1 credit to get 1 bubble up, and in total, there are 21 bubbles if I'm not wrong, and there are many chances that you miss that tab. Imagine how many credits the player would lose if he was at C when the power trip occurred. Totally unfair, isn't it?

Remind me never to go back to Westmall's arcade. Let this serve as a warning and insight to their extremely dissatisfying service and attitudes.

Footnote: Who are you Arameya?

Caffeine and me.

Coffee. The staple of every Singaporean's diet. I'm no different. The aroma of freshly brewed coffee wafting through the air simply awakens all your senses. It is like a drug waiting, amidst wispy clouds of white steam, for you to indulge in it. Picking up the handle, you breathe in the addictive aroma before lowering your lips into the foamy depths. The first gulp brings a rush so relaxing and refreshing nothing can compare. Not drugs, not alcohol, no cigarettes; caffeine.

Okay, enough fantasizing about coffee. This is my favourite coffee! McCafe's Mochacinno! Yummy :D I took this picture earlier at the Macs at East Coast Park and it just looks so good I had to find an excuse to post it!

Coffee is just an essential part of my life. I can't survive without it. It's like the nicotine in a smoker's cigarette for me. It's my drug. If there's one thing I can't live without is my coffee! My philosophy in life: Coffee and sex. That's all you need! :D

Relishing that Slackiness

It's a girls night out, and all the boys were eliminated! Sorry Zhong Jian and Melvyn. Boys just suck, and girls RULE! :x Ah, just for that day. You guys are still important to us. :)

Char came over to fetch me at 12 am. She was so sweet, driving all the her place at Bukit Timah to Ang Mo Kio to bring me to her house. I'll probably do the same for her, but I ain't got no car and NO LICENSE! #$%^&* to the instructor who failed me. We dropped by Mac to pickup some food for me. I was hungry!

Oh well, when we reached her place, all was asleep and we made our way to her cosy little room with Baileys and milk! Yum I love that concoction all right. But we didn't manage to drink much, it's more like I fell asleep soon after and Charmaine was watching "4bia", that thai movie which featured 4 freaky stories. She was online (no I don't know what she was doing, I was asleep) until 5am, and I woke up at 7.30am and I simply woke her up. I'm mean I know, but I can't help it. I just like to roll around her, and incidently it just woke her. So we talked until it's 10.30am, shared alot of bullshit about our boys, about my work, about her studies, about everything that we didn't have time to catch up to. And I think I made a pretty stupid comment.

"I don't want to see your brother and sister."

"Why?"

"They simply remind me of how old I am."

"Wtf?"

Maybe it's a fact that I first saw Clarence and Charlene when they were in Primary School, and that I can't erase that youthfulness that comes along when I think of them. When I see that both of them are taller and bigger than me, I can't help but feel annoyed at how much older I've grown. I like to be some sort of timeless beauty.

I think the most interesting part of our conversation wasn't the above, but was centric around Naval Piercing. Woo~ It's a priority list thingy from secondary school, we so wanted to try that time. But Naval Piercing is expensive to go for, and the studs are also expensive. I had little pocket money then, but now that I'm working, it sounds perfect. (Also because there's the danger factor of naval piercing, that you can't be too active with it. People who know me will know that I'm hyperactive. )

So I managed to goad Charmaine into it. I like to share something similar with my close friends, like clothes, wallet, and this time, naval piercing. We GPS-ed our way down to Parkway Parade to Stege, and I got a pink one and Char's got her favourite colour in Purple.

To Char: We should go do something special like this again, though I need to think what special things we can still do. I think holiday next. Muacks.

Meanwhile, we went to shop for things that actually can show our tummies. We decided to buy a similar jacket, which we both really like. Man we have similar taste too. MUACKS. And no, that doesn't really show our tummies unless we wear a tube inside.

Walked around some more and I can feel Char wanting to wake Melvyn up and meet him (she's like calling him 1001 times) , and my wanting to go back home to find Zhong Jian. Eventually, Char sent me back (again with GPS) and I think she went to find Melvyn to show him her new naval piercing.

I love naval piercing. Everyone should get it too!